A New Year & A New Begining

Wow its been so long since I last posted. I guess that I just wanted to spare you all the boring details of my life. Well there is nothing more/ new to speak of as of this moment in time. I tried to get back out into the world of dating and well that ended quickly. What the hell is everyone out there that crazy? I guess to some degree it just proved to myself that I was not ready for that yet.

So December has proved its self the month of hell as it normally does, however this year being alone it was the worst ever. Its not so much the time of year or the month its just that emotionally this will always be a rough month for me. The 18th started it all with Jamie's birthday and then trying to get the house ready for the annual Christmas Party (which I really felt that I needed to do for not only me but for him as well). Pile on top of that some major stress from work (a just a lot of major projects) and school and well it was just a little too much. The holiday was okay I cooked (first time ever) and my friend Kathy came for dinner.

I kind of lost my way to the gym for the last three months (oops). However with the cold weather I just can't seem to drag my sorry butt out of bed at such an early (and dark) hour. I have instead found a new hobby, well its really an old one. I have to admit that its been twenty years since I found myself wearing a pair of roller skates, however I have been going at least twice a week for the last few weeks. What a great way to exercise during the winter months and did I mention its cheap! Yup I have found muscles that I did not know that I had! I have to admit it's been fun and the nice thing is that on Sunday nights its 21 and older. Which is great because the same people go every week.

Well the new year begins... I have so many changes going on first I'm transferring out of Kaplan University and moving over to South University which is based here in Georgia. The nice thing is that they have been around since 1899 and they are still a brick and mortar school that offers on-line classes. Good thing is that my books will be paid for by a grant that is funded by the state (GTE Grant). I hope that the weather forecast that is my life continues to have dissipating clouds and that sun soon shows its greatness. As normal I just do my thing and allow time to do its thing.

Here's to 2010! Because I don't do New Year's resolutions I leave you with this quote...

"Always be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man" (person) ... Benjamin Franklin

Catching up

Its been awhile since my last post, okay so its been since the beginning of August. What can I say its been a really strange month.

Stressful and emotionally draining, I not sure why but its been a month of emptiness. Strange how when you just start thinking that things are going well... then you crash and burn all over again. I have not really been doing anything more than working, school work, house work, watching TV and sleeping.

I have not even been to the gym since July, all I know is that I need to get back into the swing of things. You know its gotten bad when I have not been out in over month. Just don't seem to want to be bothered.

I just have to find my way out of this rut and begin again. I'm hoping that my mothers visit will help me on this road. So many things have been going on around me yet I seem to be moving forward in slow motion at times (everywhere but at work) which seems to be nothing but go, go, go.

Anyway... I just thought I would post and provide everyone with an update. I know that things will get back to normal soon its just a combination of the fall weather and everything else.

Until next time... keep smiling! I know that I'm starting to again.

A MUST share moment...

You will very rarely find me posting things like this, however my friend Wendy sent this link and it had me rolling on the floor laughing... and running scared all at the same time. Do you think this will some day be the norm?



http://aclu.org/pizza/images/screen.swf

What was I thinking...

Really what was I thinking...Go for a tattoo and not have been drinking heavily prior?

Yup, I did just that. Saturday was just another day and my friends Matt and Kasey had already decided that they were going to get a tattoo, after all Kasey has only been talking about it for what seems to be forever.

You see it all began a week prior to my 41st birthday after drinking way too much at the pool I decided to talk about getting a tattoo, why I don't really know. Mostly because I could and no one was going to tell me differently. Anyway we discussed going on the weekend of my birthday, however I really did not know what I wanted or where. As you know these questions must be answered with great consideration, you don't want to just jump off the bridge and then half way down decide that was not what you should have done.

As the story continues we approach last Thursday night; once again we were out for dinner and drinks this time with another friend Melanie and low and behold the subject came up again, this time Kasey mentioned it. I thought oh god, I have to make up my mind.

Well I went to work on Friday and during lunch surfed until I found what I liked, but the endless question for not only myself as I would shortly find out, but also everyone in my life would reveal its ugly head...."Why a lizard" Great question, quick google it and have an answer ready, yes that is exactly what I did. What was that? you want to know what I found, well I found the following:

"The lizard represents basking in the sun. Some say its a symbol of awareness. Ancient Greeks say it is a symbol of all that we hold true and dear."

Sounded great to me; however while this interpretation of someone else's thoughts provided comfort to those around me, for myself it was the memories that it invoked. Those memories of living in Florida and great times that I had while living there and times shared with friends and family.

You see my favorite story of all time was when I returned home from a trip from out of state and walked in the house and looked around to see what changed (this was necessary, first so that I would not trip over any furniture that was moved and secondly, if I had not noticed the changes I would have been in the dog house for at least a week) and I noticed that there were these two lizards on the wall... "Wow" what great art work and where ever did you find those, I asked. Well to my surprise the answer was "out in the yard they must have gotten in when I had the door open".

So for all my friends and family, in the words of my favorite radio newscaster Paul Harvey ..."That's the rest of the story!"













Thanks to my friends who stood by me and laughed at my funny looks of pain. Without you in my life it would be a very lonely and boring existence.

A Red Maple Tree...

I'm reminded of a quote from Everett Mámor;

"We can learn a lot from trees: they're always grounded but never stop reaching heavenward."

On this day, one of many milestones; my Dad bought a tree in the memory of Jamie. What he did not realize was that this particular day 27 JUL 09 holds greater meaning and the fact that we planted this beautiful tree on it gives me more reasons to appreciate its grandeur.

You see this would have been our 22nd Anniversary and so the fact that this tree was planted on this day will provide me with a constant reminder of Jamie and our love.

Trees are majestic, resilient and every growing. They provide shade to our homes, clean air to our world and beauty like none other. Trees are like old friends and they grow with us and our families.


They are natures gifts to us yet, we don't always appreciate what we are given.


Thank you to my Dad for this gift. One that will keep on giving year after year and lets not forget the joy it will give me every time I see it and remember my dear friend.

Pictures

I thought I would share a few pictures that I took a few years ago during one of my vacations.

It's been a while...

Okay so I've been really bad and have not posted anything for a while... a long while. As one of my friends said today " you've lost that blogging feeling.." you know the rest of the song.

So what's been going on... Well I took a week off to relax and sit by the pool (okay so I was going to clean the house out too). Funny thing about that was that it rained and the weather was really shitty for most of the week. I did however have a great birthday! The night of my birthday Don, Matt and Kasey took me out to dinner (Mexican of course). Later that night we went out and when I say we it way Don myself and Matt! Yes he went out with us. We hit three bars and as you can believe I got totally crocked off my butt (Don thanks for driving). I should have know it was coming with the shots of Jose and beer and then moving to whiskey (what the heck was I thinking).

Needless to say Thursday was a lost day... Slept all day and finally felt better around 11pm. The weekend was okay went out Friday and Saturday night. I finally deiced on Sunday to clean the house. So much stuff!

Work was as usual work. I went to dinner on Wednesday with two of my friends and we took the tour of Atlanta, they have not really gotten out to see the sights. Great company! Friday night was Joe's and those of you that know me, its unusual for me not to be there.

Saturday was a run around day and then Saturday night I went to dinner with another friend. They finally opened a CPK in Norcoss! We both had the Greek pizza... all I can say is that is was different and good. Work this week has been a rush to get caught up as the boss is out of town all week and the office has been very empty...

I made the decision to transfer schools in January mostly because everyone else was doing it and it made sense to do so. I can now get the Hope scholarship (money for books) because the school is based in Georgia (now I have an excuse to go back to Savanah!). The weeks are only 5.5 weeks and I will be able to finish my degree a year earlier. They also offer MBA so once I'm done with my degree its time to move on to the masters, after all this way I wont have to pay the bill yet!


Its now Wednesday and I'm running around cutting the lawn, cleaning the house and getting ready for the arrival of my Dad. He will be visiting from Friday until Tuesday, I personally think it a little too much time for him (he gets bored when he has nothing to do and he's worst than a 4 year old) oh well, it will be nice to see him again.

It's been a tuff few weeks, trying to figure out what I'm doing with my life and what will happen next. I'm trying to get back into the dating world...well not trying very hard yet! Hopefully seeing my Dad will help I've just been in a funk for the last few weeks and not sure what the issue is, All I know is it sucks!

Till next time...
Jeff