Just another day... I think not. Its been a stressful week. Work, Friends and such. I just don't understand whats with everyone this week. I swear it has something to do with the last full moon. Everyone is on edge including myself. My friends all seem to be going through tough times right now and I'm just feeling a little out there too.
Life tends to bring us things whether or not we are ready for them. A great example of ready for it would be that I found my way back to church this week, of course it was because of my friend Michael who introduced me to a church that is actually accepting of who I am and does not tell me that I'm going to burn in hell for things that I do in life. Instead they focus on the positives in life and how to live your life with god. I must say that being raised Catholic and finding out later in life that the church was not accepting of my lifestyle was no surprise, however I always was looking for that missing piece. Now I have found it in a Pentecostal church. its a great mix of people and its uplifting. My message to the Catholic Church... If you don't believe in me I don't believe in your teachings. No offense to any of my Catholic friends; its has nothing to do with you, its about a church that lives in the dark and refuses to change.
I'm very thankful that Michael has come into my life and that he has shared this with me. Michael and I share a common life experience, we both lost our spouses. This is something that most people just don't understand. They think they do, however when someone dies that is your partner the pain and emotional state that you're feeling is something that only a person in the same position can fully understand and appreciate. Support of family and friends is always important but having a friend who has been there makes a world of difference. Michael lost his partner over seven years ago and I lost mine as you know over two years ago. The pain might lessen, however it never goes away. Its something that you learn to live with, sharing your memories along the way and knowing that you're not alone. I know that he is personally going some really bad times right now, however this too will lessen with time and he will be back to his normal crazy out of control self.
I guess this is a lesson for all of us. We need to live life everyday and enjoy what we have and appreciate one another because you never know what tomorrow holds for you. I know that I have grown emotionally and spiritually this year, however I still have a long road to travel. Traveling this road with my family and friends is the only way that I know I will find the right way in life. I'm so thankful for all my friends, without whom I would never have made it through the last year. I'm also thankful for those new friends in my life, like Michael who has shown me that its okay to remember and that I'm not the only person in this position. That the person who is missing from my life is still part of my life and always will be part it. I know that if and when I find someone new to share my life with that they too need to understand this fact, because without Jamie's impact I would not be the person I am today.
My friend Jim has a direct way of just telling me to get over it, its time to move on. He's so correct, its just a lot easier said than done at times. I really don't know what I would have done without so many great people in my life. Yeah I tease folks like Jim because they are direct, but I know that they care and that the message is meant with a dose of love and reality sprinkled together.
Okay as usual I have gone on way too much. So my parting thought of the day is:
Psalms 31:24 "Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the lord."
Friday, March 25, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Beautiful Day...
Yes, its a Beautiful day in Atlanta today and while running around like a madman (which is also normal for me these days) I heard this song by Mary J Blige. It kind of sums up how I was feeling this morning.
Psalm 138:7
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me.
"Beautiful Day"
Tired of living like my days are bad
When I open up my eyes, I'm glad
And I can't complain 'bout yesterday
Cuz today's a brand new day
Comb my hair and though some like it wrong
Jump in my ride because it's on
And I'm gone, I'm gone
[1] - I woke up this morning
Opened up my eyes and prayed, Lord
Cuz it's a beautiful day
No matter what nobody say
Even though it's cloudy
I can see the sun rays
Oh, cuz it's a beautiful day
No matter what nobody say
Cuz it's a beautiful day, a beautiful day
Life just can't get no better than this
Mother Nature's given us a kiss
Cuz tomorrow I'm glad I didn't miss
Let's take advantage of days like this
When the night time does finally hit
There'll be no reason for guns
It'll be fun, fun, fun, fun
[Repeat 1]
Everything is good because I'm living and I'm healthy
I'm not too concerned 'bout being poor or being wealthy
I feel really good about this blessing given to me
Nothing in this world could ever take all my joy from me
It's beautiful, it's beautiful
It's beautiful, it's beautiful
It's beautiful
A beautiful day, a beautiful day
A beautiful day, a beautiful day
[Repeat 1]
I don't have a complain in the world
I am doing so good
Without, without, without the money
Without, without, without the stress
Without, without, without the people, oh yea
Tired of living like my days are bad
When I open up my eyes, I'm glad
And I can't complain 'bout yesterday
Cuz today's a brand new day
Comb my hair and though some like it wrong
Jump in my ride because it's on
And I'm gone, I'm gone
[1] - I woke up this morning
Opened up my eyes and prayed, Lord
Cuz it's a beautiful day
No matter what nobody say
Even though it's cloudy
I can see the sun rays
Oh, cuz it's a beautiful day
No matter what nobody say
Cuz it's a beautiful day, a beautiful day
Life just can't get no better than this
Mother Nature's given us a kiss
Cuz tomorrow I'm glad I didn't miss
Let's take advantage of days like this
When the night time does finally hit
There'll be no reason for guns
It'll be fun, fun, fun, fun
[Repeat 1]
Everything is good because I'm living and I'm healthy
I'm not too concerned 'bout being poor or being wealthy
I feel really good about this blessing given to me
Nothing in this world could ever take all my joy from me
It's beautiful, it's beautiful
It's beautiful, it's beautiful
It's beautiful
A beautiful day, a beautiful day
A beautiful day, a beautiful day
[Repeat 1]
I don't have a complain in the world
I am doing so good
Without, without, without the money
Without, without, without the stress
Without, without, without the people, oh yea
My parting thought today is a little different:
Psalm 138:7
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Sharing good times...
Sharing good times with friends is something we should all do. It was my pleasure last weekend to gather our skating family together for an out of rink encounter. We had dinner together at Doc Chey's. It was a great time, we agreed that we would do this monthly and try new places and food along the way. Next month we are going to an Indian Restaurant in the Grayson/Lawernceville area. The following month we are going to go to my friends Deb and Rick's restaurant Joe's in Loganville.
Over the last week my life has had many twists and turns. I found myself in the middle of a break-up of two of my friends. Let me tell ya darlings this is one position that you don't want to be in. Its been hard for me because I care so much about both of them but yet I keep sticking my foot into the swamp. I just can't win in this situation so silence is going to be golden. I just have to let both of them rant on and keep my mouth shut. Do yourself a favor if you're ever in this situation, run like hell and don't look back, otherwise you will sucked into the middle and next thing you know your acting as the middleman or worst yet the pass though for forgotten items (lol). Well given everything that's been going on I'm still very thankful to have two great friends, even though now I can't spend time with them both at the same time.
Things have been going well with work for a change I just have been working what seems to be very long hours, I think its more or less because I've been working all those damn mornings. Sorry but 5 am to 2 pm might sound great but when you get up at 3:30 am its not fun at all. Then there is the fact that I'm not one to get my butt into bed early, its normally at least 10:30 0r later before I head off to sleep land which really does not leave me with much sleep.
School has been crazy, I have week off right now and I'm very thankful for that fact. I made the deans list with a 3.87 GPA which I should be very happy about; but yet I wanted to do better.
I have to admit its been rather strange for me the last few weeks in general. Things are going on in my life that have made me appreciate what I have and really allowed me to be very thankful at the same time. Its funny we tend to live our life's on auto-pilot and not really every stop to smell the roses as the saying goes. Its really amazed me how when you start to view the world either through the eyes of another person or with a more positive out look, how much better it appears to be. Its also very interesting to notice all the small things that you've never notice before.
Well I have a vacation coming up in the first part of April and I'm looking forward to it more than anyone can every image. I just need the down time from work and the world for a few days. I'm not really sure that I'm going to be doing just yet. My dad told me I could go and stay with him in Florida. I really think I just want to go camping in the woods somewhere away from cellphones and TV's for a day or two. Do some hiking and just get back to nature and appreciate what it has to offer.
Well it's time to call it a night. Once again I have rambled on way too much, as my normal sign off let me share with you a quote.
"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."
Over the last week my life has had many twists and turns. I found myself in the middle of a break-up of two of my friends. Let me tell ya darlings this is one position that you don't want to be in. Its been hard for me because I care so much about both of them but yet I keep sticking my foot into the swamp. I just can't win in this situation so silence is going to be golden. I just have to let both of them rant on and keep my mouth shut. Do yourself a favor if you're ever in this situation, run like hell and don't look back, otherwise you will sucked into the middle and next thing you know your acting as the middleman or worst yet the pass though for forgotten items (lol). Well given everything that's been going on I'm still very thankful to have two great friends, even though now I can't spend time with them both at the same time.
Things have been going well with work for a change I just have been working what seems to be very long hours, I think its more or less because I've been working all those damn mornings. Sorry but 5 am to 2 pm might sound great but when you get up at 3:30 am its not fun at all. Then there is the fact that I'm not one to get my butt into bed early, its normally at least 10:30 0r later before I head off to sleep land which really does not leave me with much sleep.
School has been crazy, I have week off right now and I'm very thankful for that fact. I made the deans list with a 3.87 GPA which I should be very happy about; but yet I wanted to do better.
I have to admit its been rather strange for me the last few weeks in general. Things are going on in my life that have made me appreciate what I have and really allowed me to be very thankful at the same time. Its funny we tend to live our life's on auto-pilot and not really every stop to smell the roses as the saying goes. Its really amazed me how when you start to view the world either through the eyes of another person or with a more positive out look, how much better it appears to be. Its also very interesting to notice all the small things that you've never notice before.
Well I have a vacation coming up in the first part of April and I'm looking forward to it more than anyone can every image. I just need the down time from work and the world for a few days. I'm not really sure that I'm going to be doing just yet. My dad told me I could go and stay with him in Florida. I really think I just want to go camping in the woods somewhere away from cellphones and TV's for a day or two. Do some hiking and just get back to nature and appreciate what it has to offer.
Well it's time to call it a night. Once again I have rambled on way too much, as my normal sign off let me share with you a quote.
"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."
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