A New Day

So a day has past since I last posted. Nothing has really changed, survived yet another Sunday and managed to not eat everything in the house... thankfully!

Sunday was pretty serene. Just worked on clearing out some of the clutter in this monster house; you really need to ask yourself once in a while why do I have so many things? I don't know about you but I have more linens and bed sets than I think they even carry at Bed Bath and Beyond. That man could spend money honey. I'm now figuring out where it went (stuffed in closets, drawers, and any other place I did not care to look). Bless his heart though the house always looked a like model home.

I'm not sure what the issue was last night but I just could not seem to sleep. May be I was just so excited about going back to the gym....not (well at least not that excited). I save that excitement for other things (wink, wink).

I just got off the phone with one of my friends, he lost his mom just a few weeks ago and is experiencing a lot of same things I recently encountered. I must say its not easy. It should not be easy, but you just need to do what's best for you. He's such a wonderful person and is so caring I'm glad that his partner is there to support him during this transition time. I say transition because in reality that's what it is, moving from one emotional plane to another. Its hard to let go; but the truth is you really never do let go, you just learn to accept the change/loss.

Well enough babbling for now... I'm just going to work on my "to do" list and wait (not very patiently, might I add) to hear from another friend.

Just a thought about the value of your friends:

"Your friends will know you better in the first minute they meet you than your acquaintances will know you in a thousand years."

~ Richard Bach

A day like no other...

Okay, so the day started off with me releasing some energy and writing about how I've been feeling. I got a chance to meet up with one of my friends during lunch (where she works as a chef). The food was outstanding and the chance (planned or not planned, I'll let you decide that one) meeting of a possible new friend which made my day.

Of course I had to spend some time at the pool, I mean what would I do if my tan faded in the middle of the summer? Lets be real here. I packed my cooler(adult beverages of course) and floated around the pool. Bill and his niece showed up with Ella and Molly of course you know I had to go play with the kids. After all I'm just a big kid myself. It was all fun and games until I remembered that I had to do my posting for that damn Ethics class (week three and I'm all ready thinking...is it over yet?).

Finished my posting and just sitting and relaxing now. Tomorrow will be another day of possible adventure then again it just might be a day of sleep. The gym is closed on Sundays and its been nearly a week and a half since I went (had to be to work early all week) and I'm jonesing for a good work out. I hate to say it... Monday is looking good!

My closing thought is this simple yet powerful statement:

Funny thing when you meet someone, you know instantly if your going to like them and today was one of those days. Enough said....for now.

Friends

Friends are wonderful people, they fill your life with joy and understanding. They are there when you need them the most, and as I found out over the last few days they are also the catalyst for change.

I say this because your friends sometimes know that change is necessary, even when you're not quite ready. One of my friends just recently has decided that I need to get out and meet a few new friends. I'm okay with this change, it never hurts to have more friends. After all that's what life is all about... surrounding yourself with family and friends.

I certainly would not have been able to survive for the last few months without all of my wonderful friends, their love and compassion has been more than I could have ever expected. I'm so grateful to be so blessed to have all of them in my life. As I sit and type this post, it reminds me of Jamie and it while everyone thinks that I'm doing well it brings tears to my eyes thinking about our friends and how much I miss him. He always told me that I need to continue to live my life and enjoy every precious moment. I have been in my own way, trying to sort out everything that has happened over the last few months.

While I'm beginning to find my way, I often stop and wonder what's next and how will I face tomorrow with out my best friend. I have the comfort of my memories to keep close at hand and I know that is what he wanted me to do. So with these words that I type I'm reminded of one of my favorite quotes:

“The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.” - Don Williams

Its been a long enjoyable road for me for the past 22 years and while the last few miles (months) have been the most challenging. I see a twist up ahead and know that when I get to it there will be a turn. A turn that will set me in a new direction and while I've enjoyed this road, its now time step out side my comfort zone and begin to live again...

What does all this mean? That my friends is a great question. I guess I will find out as I being to move forward, with all my friends at my side.

Jeff

The begining....

Okay so this is what I consider the beginning of something totally new for me. I've never been one to slow down enough to share my thoughts or personal moments; however over the last few months the world has taught me that I need to look at things from a different angle.

So this is my new angle, to be open minded about new things and to live each day as a new adventure. After all isn't that what life is all about?

I guess that's all I have for now. Check back soon to see what's new and exciting.

Jeff